foolish

I couldn't shake this feeling off from me. When mouth is faster than your brain, it's easy to see whose the biggest fool. It doesn't matter if you try joking around or in the middle of discussion, choose your words wisely.

I recall some conversation I made last night and it sucks, and it wasn't even a JOKE!
I just wish I could reverse that time and say something normal, but the damage is done.
And there some other event, my selfishness bloom like a spore that spreading through the entire jungle.

I keep pulling a long face and try to avoid conversation. But I should know better, none of us want it that way.. Just didn't go exactly like we plan and it really frustrating.

I'm sorry again and again, that I had failed to overcome this feeling.

I wish I could be better person for you

Region Out of Focus

When did the last time I log in to this blog? I could only assumed it's being almost a year now since I post anything here.

I have to admit, there times I lost interest with this bloggering stuff. But then I realize, by writing alone can make me stay in touch to reality. When there's something that bother me the most, I try to calm myself convince it will be alright. If self-assured wasn't promising enough, I turn to someone whom I could count on, hearing me out, telling me everything is a-okay.

When it comes to something gibberish, my only hope is "this" page. I try not to sound like lunatic although I already Am sound like one, especially when I start talking to myself bout everything.

Normally, people start talking to themselves while at work.. just some people do that including me. Basically, at work when talking to one-self its normal (as long as the content is related to work). But, if you do that in public people will assume you have some mental disease.

I don't really care what people think bout me talking to myself, cause it's my way to get some answers. I'm not the only one..

At least I'm not demented. Continue carry on with your life now.

Such a cloudy mind

I don't have a right word to say or wisdom that anyone can seek, but why anyone wanna seek me out anyway? ^^
My mind very stuffy now, but it wasn't because my working condition. It's all about my bedroom..

I'm really such a homey person, I rather stay at home doing something that maybe some people think it's boring that going out, but I do went out occasionally.




So when one room in such a jeopardy, one head get dizzy, and same goes with those dusty rabbits. It's cleaning time! I don't know why I enjoy cleaning, not just my room but the whole household (though sometimes I can be very cranky when some individual just don't know how to tidy up their own garbage).

But now, better stop babbling and start taking action.